Cost of Freedom
"Help me, please help me," she whispered to herself as she sat on the floor
of her bedroom, slowly rocking back and forth.
She could hear the yelling down the hall. He was drunk again and she knew
that this time, yes, this time something would happen. In the past she and
her mother usually got out of the house when he was drinking, or he'd come
home in a drunken stupor and passed out on the living room floor.
She jumped as she heard something smash down the hall.
"Oh please, please…what did I do that was so wrong? Why won't someone help
me? We don't deserve this."
Tears slid down her face as she sat there on her
What is a Goth?
There are many views on what a person considers to be a "Goth". There are the Crow fans, the spooky kids or Mansonites, the vampire Forever Knight Goths, and the weekenders. Some don't fit into those categories. They are poets, musicians, artists, actors or photographers. I set out to find out what people think is "Gothic", and what that means to them. Goths have views of what a Goth is and "normal" people have their own views.
I am tired of having people look at me and tell me I am Gothic, or telling me I am a baby bat. I have become tired of people looking at me as if I'm some sort of thief when I walk in a st
I am and interesting and unique individual who likes all the odd stuff others dont. I like poetry, photography, emotional art as well as fractal. I'm a tomboy/emo/punk it all depends on the day.
Current Residence: Townsville Favourite genre of music: too many to pick from Favourite style of art: intricate patterns and dark drawings Operating System: Windows XP MP3 player of choice: BASE digital video mp3 Shell of choice: Black Wallpaper of choice: --- Skin of choice: --- Favourite cartoon character: dont watch cartoons Personal Quote: I dont suffer from insanity i enjoy every moment of it
i miss my baby boys.cant imagine how much it hurts me to not know what you look like any more.
i dont even know your favourite colour.
i talk to you and i dont know what to say and i have so many questions and so little time i havent even met the two of you boys yet and i know it will hurt me more if i do. i feel so bad but its not my fault i only hope you grow up knowing that i tried to be there for you and that i love you very very much. i hope i will still be here for you when you need me but now i cannot be too sure.
things are just too much and i am thinking of giving up. if worse comes to worse i hope you will know me only as some on
well it seems god hates me and i am doomed to be alone for ever.
i have twonew twin brothers which is making my life harder.
i'm depressed again and focusing on suicide related material such as poems and music also videos.
anything to make my self cry, tho makes things harder when it comes to wanting to self harm but not be able to
i miss going out and drowning my problems with vodka (<3 vodka
I'm sitting here crying and trying to decide to act on the strongest thoughts of suicide i have had in a long long time. about t6o go research what death by od is like. just so fucking over everything its like i have no place in this life or any reason to be here bout to go try find my grandparrents wine bottles and then we will see what happens. just wish i had a friend to hold me and be with me i dont want to die alone